I have some thoughts on this subject, oh yes. What’s more, I even wrote a song about it. Well, lyrics anyway. Hopefully the melody part will come, and some day you’ll hear the actual recording here on Misfit Music Central.
On that note (ha! pun!), thought I’d share the lyrics… cause who knows, maybe one of you Musical Misfits out there might think of a melody? In which case…
Now this is the part in the concert where I guess I have to tell the bla bla bla backstory.
In a nutshell, the other day, I was challenged by a coach/counselor type person on the subject of disappointment. I think in the church (*note the lower case “c”) this is a dirty word. No one wants to admit it. At least I don’t. And I don’t think I’m alone on this.
Cause it feels unholy.
Ungrateful.
After all, doesn’t the Bible tell us:
“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
1 Thes 5:16-18
Yes, yes, it does. So far, far be it for me to negate scripture.
But wait, there’s more!
Take a look at this:
“How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?” Psalms 13:1-2
Ok, so maybe admitting to the Living God WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING anyway, including all the thoughts that you’ve thunk… maybe this is not verbotten by Scripture? Maybe it’s actually modeled to us? Maybe we’ve even been given a free downloadable template?
So yeah, back to the coach/counselor. She threw out a challenge for me to INVITE Jesus into my disappointment. Which I thought was interesting, because at the moment I was not at all disappointed… in fact, I was feeling pretty good, because just a little early that day I found out something that I hoped for was going to happen. Yay!
And then wouldn’t you know it… later that day the thing I had hoped for was, well, kind of yanked away. Not viciously, mind you. In fact, it was very humbly and apologetically yanked away (which, note to self: if you have to yank something away from someone is the best way to do it). It had been a “mistake”.
Ah, there it is: The opportunity for the Invitation. Game on!
Cue Song:
THE DISAPPOINTMENT SONG (a lyrical work in progress)
Verse1 Here we are Gather around Hopes rise up Hopes fall down Hope deferred Heart unwell Here’s my story Sad to tell But I can’t deny Can’t suppress Must confess, Time to address Cause it feels like a cancer And it’s not the right answer I know Oh, I know
CHORUS But I’m just disappointed At the way some things are turning out At the way things haven’t come about By dreams that elude By my own attitude And I know it’ll all work out But for now, will You just let me pout? Cause the truth is, I’m just… I’m just disappointed
VERSE 2 Goals unmet Songs unsung Doors unopened Work undone Stories untold As I’m growing old And time, it just keeps on slippin, slippin… Guess I’m longing to hear that it’s not too late That there’s still more to come That my story’s not done So I’m waiting on You What else can I do? But hold on…hold on In my weakness, let You be strong And don’t let me go Please hold me real close As I whisper this secret You already know
CHORUS 2 I’m just disappointed At the ways it seems I’ve let You down At the mountains I keep going round and around By the dreams I’ve forsaken The chances not taken And the cues that I’ve missed They’re too long to list Are you getting the gist? I’m just disappointed
BRIDGE Yeah I should be much farther Have it together Healthier, wealthier, wiser, better Yeah, I should Wish I would But for now Here we are In the land of lament I renounce, I repent So hear me confess That my life is a mess And I’m telling you now the best way I know how…
CHORUS 3 That I’m just disappointed Well truth, I hear, it sets you free Cause You’re seeing things so differently So the problem, I’m certain is certainly me I know that You’re good But I’m caught up in “should” And this isn’t the way I want it to be
I am disappointed And maybe just maybe I’m whining a little Cause it feels like I’m stuck, yeah I’m stuck in the middle But You seem so content to just sit here with me And really there’s no place that I’d rather be Gratefully Happily Helplessly Hopefully Bringing my heavy heart straight to You Yes It’s true Oh it’s true That You know just what to do With my hopes And my dreams And unprofitable schemes
TAG But for now I confess It just feels like a mess No, It won’t last forever So I’ll never say never And I’m only revealing That I’m just… I’m just… I’m just disappointed
What do you think? Does this resonate? Anyone?… Anyone?
Isle of misfits 